For weeks, I’ve been searching for opportunities, sending applications, having conversations, planting seeds, and sending bottles into the sea. Some found their destination. Many disappeared beyond the horizon. Along the way, I realized that my greatest source of suffering wasn’t the lack of opportunities it was my attachment to them. The truth is, I know my potential. I know the value I can bring. I know what my personal mission is. What I don’t know is when, where, or through whom the next opportunity will arrive. And perhaps that’s not mine to control.
Too often, we wait for the stars to align before taking action. We wait until we feel ready, qualified, confident, or certain. But if you wait until you’re ready, you’ll be waiting for the rest of your life. Growth has never come from certainty. It comes from stepping forward despite uncertainty. So I’ve decided to give up. Not on myself or on my dreams, and not on my mission. I’ve decided to give up my attachment to outcomes. To stop forcing doors to open. To stop trying to control the tide. Instead, I choose to trust it.
I trust the seeds I’ve planted and trust the bottles I’ve sent into the sea. I trust that the right opportunities will arrive when the time is right, not because I chased them harder, but because I remained true to who I am.
Where the Heart Naturally Goes to
I often go for a walk without a fixed destination. Let myself move through the streets slowly, openly, and without needing to arrive anywhere in particular. Instead of deciding where to go, I allow my attention to lead me. I notice what my eyes keep returning to. I notice what makes me pause, what makes me curious, what feels familiar, beautiful, strange, comforting, or alive.
So maybe you are drawn to a certain colour, a doorway, a sound, a person passing by, a shop window, a tree growing between buildings, a pattern of light on the pavement. Maybe something ordinary suddenly feels meaningful. Maybe something you usually ignore asks for your attention. Pause for a moment and ask yourself: Does it remind me of something? Why did this catch my attention? What do I feel when I look at it? Is there a memory, desire, fear, or question connected to it? What part of me is responding to this? What might this attraction be telling me about who I am right now?
I am naturally drawn to places and experiences that feel nourishing and grounding: parks, bookstores, wholefood stores, and anything connected to fitness, wellbeing, and spirituality. They reflect my desire for balance, growth, health, and inner calm. What attracts me is not random; it shows what I value.
Not Giving a F*ck
I started reading a book called the subtle art of not giving a f*ck. In the beginning of the book Mark Manson tells the story of Charles Bukowski. Who was a writer who spent much of his life poor, rejected, drunk, and unknown, working low-paying jobs while sending out poems and stories that publishers mostly ignored. Eventually, after many years, his raw and direct style gained attention, and he became a successful cult writer. Manson uses Bukowski’s story to show that success did not come from pretending to be positive or special, but from accepting his flaws and caring deeply about the one thing that mattered to him: writing.
Charles Bukowski’s story in shows the importance of trusting who we are, living authentically, and not being obsessed with success. He kept writing because it mattered to him, not because it made him famous or respected. He did not pretend to be perfect or try to become someone society would admire; instead, he wrote honestly about his own messy life, failures, and struggles. His story reminds us that a meaningful life does not come from chasing approval or success, but from accepting ourselves, choosing what truly matters.
This story inspires me to believe in who I am and stay true to my values and as I am, even when the path is uncertain. It reminds me to keep trying, stay open to different experiences, and focus on what truly matters to me rather than chasing success. For me it looks like having a great conversation with someone in a caffe or with a customer at the Deli. His life shows that opportunities can come in unexpected ways when we live authentically.
The Language of the Cards
I’ve always been someone who follows intuition more than certainty. As someone Futuristic as one of my strengths, I naturally see possibilities before they become reality. I pay attention to feelings, patterns, and subtle signs, trusting my inner awareness to guide me. Over time, this has helped me understand myself and the world around me on a deeper level. Long meditation classes felt like they unlocked something within me. I became more aware of my intuition, my emotions, and the quiet signals I had always sensed but never fully understood. It was as if meditation opened a deeper part of me, helping me feel more connected and reflective.
I felt like a voice in my head told me this is time for me to buy my first Tarot deck. In a way confirm what I had already been sensing through my intuition. Something I’m learning to use at the moment. It becomes a way for me to explore the feelings, signs, and impressions I have about the future, and to understand the deeper messages that seemed to come through me. Tarot cards are a symbolic tool used for reflection, guidance, and storytelling. A tarot deck usually contains 78 cards, each with its own imagery, meaning, and themes, such as change, choice, growth, challenge, or new beginnings. During a reading, cards are shuffled and drawn into a spread, where their positions help shape the interpretation.
Rather than predicting the future with certainty, tarot is often used to explore possibilities, uncover patterns, and encourage deeper thinking about a situation. The meaning of each card depends on its symbolism, its placement, and the question or intention behind the reading. The reading above was about my path as a coach. It suggests that my path as a coach is deeply connected to becoming a confident, visible, and intuitive leader. It shows a natural ability to inspire, motivate, and activate others, helping people take brave steps toward change. My journey may unfold through important shifts, divine timing, and unexpected opportunities. The message overall is heart, and intuition to guide others with courage, warmth, and purpose. We’ll see!
Final Words
Trusting where and what we’re naturally drawn to means honouring the quiet pull within us before overthinking it away. Our interests, curiosities, and instincts often point toward places, people, and paths that resonate with who we truly are. When we allow ourselves to follow that inner attraction with openness and patience, we begin to move in alignment rather than force. Discovering that what feels natural can often lead us exactly where we need to be.
Desiring only positive experiences can quietly become a negative experience and keep us measuring life against what we think it should be. But when we accept negative experiences without resisting or judging them, acceptance becomes its own kind of peace. Freeing ourselves from expectation allows life to be felt more honestly. Without constantly chasing or avoiding, and in that openness we often find a deeper, steadier sense of positivity.
There is a wisdom in trusting the tide allowing ourselves to be carried toward what we’re naturally drawn to. Rather than forcing a path that doesn’t feel like ours. Whether through tarot, meditation, reading, or simply moments of stillness. We begin to hear the deeper currents within us more clearly. These practices remind us that guidance often arrives softly, through intuition, curiosity. And things that continue to call us back or show up in unexpected ways. When we stop resisting the flow, we make space to trust our own becoming. As Buddhists say, life is all about detachment.
“Forever trusting who we are, and nothing else matters.” (Metallica)
